It’s been a long time since I’ve written, and a lot of things have happened. Mark’s Oma passed away the week he started ADHD medication. I’m now on the church board and attempting to get caught up on the way things are run and the church history. Mark interviewed with Comcast. We made new friends in Chicago.
It’s been rough.
We went to Iowa over New Year’s because Oma was in the hospital for an extended amount of time and was diagnosed with cancer. She was an amazing, loving lady who, the first time I met her, asked about my grandparents and then adopted me as her own grandchild because “I needed another grandmother”. She’s the lady who’s life has crazy similarities to my own maternal Grandma’s. And the person who would always remind Mark and I that married people are united, that two become one. I miss her. And I know so many other people do, too.
I was afraid to go see her when she got sick. The first time was fine, she was just tired but still herself. The second time was really hard. She couldn’t speak well or do most things on her own. No one wanted to remember her like that. But I remember her sitting in her chair at the kitchen table in Mark’s parents’ house, looking out the window even though she couldn’t see well and taking to us or petting the cat. After she passed, we talked about her causing trouble in heaven and jumping off heavenly barn roofs with her brothers (she did that in real life when she was really little).
On top of the funeral and traveling, we’re waiting on answers. Mark has had a disorganized view of the Comcast interview process. First, they scheduled a phone interview for Sunday morning. About thirty minutes past when they were supposed to call, Mark called the general line to see what was going on. Someone called back to say the interviewer called the wrong person on the list, but they interviewed him then anyway and we missed church. After about 3-4 weeks, Mark for an email saying thanks, but no thanks. The next day, Comcast called to set up his interview for April… I’m not 100% sure there will actually be an interview in April.
I’ve been on a journey since starting this blog of figuring out busy vs productive and lazy vs rest. Along with that, I’m processing things from our Bible study on prayer, like the fact that praising God before making requests isn’t necessarily to remind God that he’s awesome, it’s to remind us that he’s capable and has answered prayer before. After our friends at Bible study heard my mini rant on why I feel Lutherans are doom and gloom, they gave me a CS Lewis book with an explanation of the “I, a poor miserable sinner” but of the service so I can finally understand the why behind it. (Spoiler- it’s not meant to make you feel guilty!) And I’m still working on not fixing everyone’s problems, rather waiting for them to ask for help and doing what I can/what’s asked for. When you put it all in a paragraph, that seems like a lot, but really it’s been over a long time and I’m still working on the understanding process. Hopefully, it won’t take me another couple of months before I write again!